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woe is me day
Feb. 7th, 2010 02:34 pmI'm having a bit of a "woe is me/my life sucks" day. ( Read more... )
I feel pathetic being so depressed--I have a job, a roof over my head, food on the table, I'm healthy enough most of the time & I have family that loves me.
Need to Bitch, sorry.
Jul. 3rd, 2009 08:13 amI just have to bitch for a few minutes...
I live with my mother, have for 5 years since her divorce from dad. We get along really well & financially/emotionally support eachother through the tough times. A little more than a year ago, mom started dating this really great guy, Kim. He's really nice & a big improvement from both dad & from mom's friends-with-benefits boytoy (20 years younger, she brought him home from work to meet me!). They're very together, and have been for a long while. Mom spends 4 days a week at home & the others with him. She also spends all holidays with him now, and I'm often invited, but it's a big change from holding holidays for the whole family at our place.
So that's been a bit difficult for me at times.
About 3 months ago, my aunt (& godmother) came to live with us, after my mom tried foisting her off on my father--which only lasted 6 weeks before he was fed up. So my aunt who doesn't work, has some health problems but does nothing to correct them, and talks about everything on tv WHILE it's playing (and a ton of other annoying things like leaving garbage lying about, including old paper plates with food on them) has now invaded my home. She eats the food I specifically bought, with my own money, for myself, even after I've said it's mine & left notes.
Then last night, she called me down from my bedroom, where I was winding down to sleep. She sounded like she was about to cry & I was worried I might have to drive her to the hospital or something. Turns out she pressed the wrong button on the universal remote & it made the tv act really wierd. And I "have to fix it!" Very annoyed, I refused to enter the room for fear I would freak out & possibly try to remove the tv from the room for her annoying me (or, you know, maybe break the tv)...and it's not like I knew what the problem WAS, anyway. So I told her to turn the tv off. First she tried the remote & actually started crying because "it won't turn OFF" so I told her to turn it off manually. Then she was all "now what?!?" and I just told her to try turning it back on. And it worked! Just like last time. And I told her that if she did it again, to try that first because I didn't know of any other solutions than that.
So I was pretty awake now, and it took me 2 hours to feel tired again, and then she came in, with a plate of muffins and offered them to me. (I won't eat her cooking because she's so very unhygenic. I've refused for years now, ever since I came early to Christmas to help her cook and saw how disgusting she is.)
After that, I tried to go to sleep, but she was on the phone. Her door was closed, and I really can't close mine, because the cat will open it again, but I tried anyway, and even with both doors closed & a pillow on my head, I could hear her! So today I'm a bit sleep deprived and soon I think I will snap.
And I just hope I don't snap at my mother, because I was so tempted to call up and say "you've abandoned me to her!"
I live with my mother, have for 5 years since her divorce from dad. We get along really well & financially/emotionally support eachother through the tough times. A little more than a year ago, mom started dating this really great guy, Kim. He's really nice & a big improvement from both dad & from mom's friends-with-benefits boytoy (20 years younger, she brought him home from work to meet me!). They're very together, and have been for a long while. Mom spends 4 days a week at home & the others with him. She also spends all holidays with him now, and I'm often invited, but it's a big change from holding holidays for the whole family at our place.
So that's been a bit difficult for me at times.
About 3 months ago, my aunt (& godmother) came to live with us, after my mom tried foisting her off on my father--which only lasted 6 weeks before he was fed up. So my aunt who doesn't work, has some health problems but does nothing to correct them, and talks about everything on tv WHILE it's playing (and a ton of other annoying things like leaving garbage lying about, including old paper plates with food on them) has now invaded my home. She eats the food I specifically bought, with my own money, for myself, even after I've said it's mine & left notes.
Then last night, she called me down from my bedroom, where I was winding down to sleep. She sounded like she was about to cry & I was worried I might have to drive her to the hospital or something. Turns out she pressed the wrong button on the universal remote & it made the tv act really wierd. And I "have to fix it!" Very annoyed, I refused to enter the room for fear I would freak out & possibly try to remove the tv from the room for her annoying me (or, you know, maybe break the tv)...and it's not like I knew what the problem WAS, anyway. So I told her to turn the tv off. First she tried the remote & actually started crying because "it won't turn OFF" so I told her to turn it off manually. Then she was all "now what?!?" and I just told her to try turning it back on. And it worked! Just like last time. And I told her that if she did it again, to try that first because I didn't know of any other solutions than that.
So I was pretty awake now, and it took me 2 hours to feel tired again, and then she came in, with a plate of muffins and offered them to me. (I won't eat her cooking because she's so very unhygenic. I've refused for years now, ever since I came early to Christmas to help her cook and saw how disgusting she is.)
After that, I tried to go to sleep, but she was on the phone. Her door was closed, and I really can't close mine, because the cat will open it again, but I tried anyway, and even with both doors closed & a pillow on my head, I could hear her! So today I'm a bit sleep deprived and soon I think I will snap.
And I just hope I don't snap at my mother, because I was so tempted to call up and say "you've abandoned me to her!"
movie & game night
Apr. 24th, 2009 11:43 pmSo Mom and I hosted dinner & a movie again. We try to do it once a month--we're hitting more like every 2-3, but that's ok.
So it was Mom, her boyfriend Kim, their friend from work James (who is my age) and I. We were going to watch Night of the Comet (spoofy sci-fi from the 80's, classic!) but my DVD player is apparently dying. Considering I bought it for maybe $150 9 years ago, I can't complain. We've had it set up as the main DVD player in the living room for like 5 years now.
Instead we watched Peggy Sue Got Married and ate Bacon Cheeseburger Pizza from Godfather's Pizza. (Yum.)
After the movie, we played Monopoly. None of us had played for more than a decade. It was so fun. At first, I thought I'd lose, because everyone was snapping up property, and I just had the 1 Rail Road. But suddenly I had 2 and then all 4, and eventually collected more...and after an hour or two, I'd won! I had nearly $10,000 in cash & 1/2 of the properties with a bunch of houses. Kim was the other person who still had money & property, and he had like $2,000. It was a very woah! moment when we realized how much I'd won by. Now if only I had that kind of money in real life.
The best parts of the game were when we kept landing in jail--Kim & I went there the most. There were jokes about Big Bertha and Billy Bob, and painting murals on the jail walls. Someone accused me of prostitution, and then since I had all 4 rail roads, someone complained about paying $200 so often, and since the guys kept landing the most, Mom said that the train must be offering special services. So I'm Madam Vicki. :-)
All in all, a good night. Soon we'll be seeing Jeff Dunham, which will be cool. He's a pretty good comedian.
And next dinner & a movie we also plan to play Clue (I've got the Simpson's Edition), so maybe we'll watch Clue too.
So it was Mom, her boyfriend Kim, their friend from work James (who is my age) and I. We were going to watch Night of the Comet (spoofy sci-fi from the 80's, classic!) but my DVD player is apparently dying. Considering I bought it for maybe $150 9 years ago, I can't complain. We've had it set up as the main DVD player in the living room for like 5 years now.
Instead we watched Peggy Sue Got Married and ate Bacon Cheeseburger Pizza from Godfather's Pizza. (Yum.)
After the movie, we played Monopoly. None of us had played for more than a decade. It was so fun. At first, I thought I'd lose, because everyone was snapping up property, and I just had the 1 Rail Road. But suddenly I had 2 and then all 4, and eventually collected more...and after an hour or two, I'd won! I had nearly $10,000 in cash & 1/2 of the properties with a bunch of houses. Kim was the other person who still had money & property, and he had like $2,000. It was a very woah! moment when we realized how much I'd won by. Now if only I had that kind of money in real life.
The best parts of the game were when we kept landing in jail--Kim & I went there the most. There were jokes about Big Bertha and Billy Bob, and painting murals on the jail walls. Someone accused me of prostitution, and then since I had all 4 rail roads, someone complained about paying $200 so often, and since the guys kept landing the most, Mom said that the train must be offering special services. So I'm Madam Vicki. :-)
All in all, a good night. Soon we'll be seeing Jeff Dunham, which will be cool. He's a pretty good comedian.
And next dinner & a movie we also plan to play Clue (I've got the Simpson's Edition), so maybe we'll watch Clue too.
